We (I should say I) often think I have all the answers. Or that if I don’t right now, I can figure it out on my own. I may not actually vocalize this to others, especially not to God – but actions show it to be how I act most of the time. There are two problems with this though:
- I do not and will never have all the facts.
- God’s ways are on a whole other level than ours.
I have to remind myself of these points often, because I like to think that I have the most facts of anyone in my household. God’s level of vision compared to mine is vast and thorough and extensive and every single word in the thesaurus that comes close to all-knowing.
In these moments, I like to meditate on Isaiah 55:8-9
“My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither rare your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heaves are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
This is why, in the moments I’ve prayed for peace that passes all understanding (Philippians 4:7) or for joy to come in the morning (Psalm 30:5) and I’m still not seeing those promises materialize, I have to remind myself that I’m not seeing the full picture. Much like when God promises Moses to deliver his people – Moses did not see the whole picture and questioned if God had messed up or forgotten him. After all, he wasn’t expecting 10 plagues BEFORE being thrown out of the pharaoh’s land.
The fact of the matter is, there are things in life that we will never understand. Like, why our parent has terminal cancer, or little things like why our child won’t sleep through the night. When we encounter situations beyond our comprehension, we can rest knowing that it is okay not to understand. In fact, this is actually perfectly normal. When we keep in mind how big our God is, we can respond to the unknowns without shocked faces.
I encourage you, the next time you are tempted to shake your head in dismay at the way motherhood looks, or the way fatherhood looks, remember God’s perspective on your life. Just because we cannot explain it, doesn’t mean it’s not right on track. If you’re following God’s leading to adopt a child, start a business or stay at home for a season, it might still look messy at times.
God himself is incomprehensible. He is not unknowable, but he is unable to be fully known by our human mind. So it stands to reason that his plans are incomprehensible as well. The unknown is a scary place, but when we focus on the character of God, the unknown can be exciting, too. The fact that we do not know everything there is to know about God means there are more amazing things to learn about him. Let the truth about who God is out crowd the desire to have control over situations in our lives. Through letting go and letting God, we find out just a little bit more about God each day.
Father, most gracious and all-knowing One, some days I feel that I only have the strength to utter, why? Although there is much in my life that I do not understand, and my lack of understanding frustrates me, help me to see the beauty in the incomprehensible. Remind me of your high-level view that is so much greater than my own. Help me to let go of my foolish, narrow scope of things, and relax in the peace you provide us in your infinite knowledge and love for us. In Jesus’ name, amen.